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A/N: kinda sorta sad and involves self harming! no like? NO READ!




"Go to Hell!"

These were the constant insults that invaded your mind every day. You don't know why everyone picked on you. Perhaps they found it fun to see you in pain. The sadistic glow in their eyes when they push you to the ground was enough to know they didn't care.

"Hey loser! Watch where you're going!" sneered a girl with blonde hair. She shoved passed you and moved towards her group of friends. They all looked at you, whispered, and laughed.

How normal.

You continued walking to history class and took your usually seat in the front row. As you begun flipping through your notes, you were flicked in the back  of the head. You turned around to see Alfred Jones. Oh how you loathed him. He was the first person to start picking on you. He made everyone else too. His wheat blonde hair and bright blue eyes make you think he is welcoming. But they are lies.

"Morning fatty!" he shouted extra loud. You turned around in your chair and faced the front.

Alfred growled in irritation. He grabbed a fistful of your (h/l) (h/c) hair. "Hey! I'm talking to you!"

You hissed in pain. "Let go!" you said in a small voice.

Alfred laughed. "Why should I? It's not like your hair is anything special." Alfred's friends snickered.

You were about to say something when you teacher strolled through the door. Alfred instantly let go your hair and acted as though nothing happened.


The lesson was boring enough. As you wrote down your notes you rubbed your wrist tenderly. Your yesterdays cuts had a dull ache to them as the many other had before.

You were writing a quick paper on the history of someone you know.

"Okay class, who wants to read their paper?" your teacher asked scanning the room.

"I'll go!" Alfred said. Everyone but you turned to face him. He cleared his throat and smirked. "This is the history of the day I met _______." You sat in silent shock as he continued. "As soon as I first layed my eyes on ______, I knew she was a loser." Here we go. "I could tell by her stupidity and boring attitiude that no one would like her. It was grade 5 when we met. She had to be the biggest nerd I had ever layed eyes on. With her geeky square glasses and frizzy hair." his speech about you continued on for a while. You could feel yourself getting close to tears. "______ knows she is useless and pathetic and we all know it too-" You sprang up and slapped him. Everyone who was snickering immediately stopped and stared in awe at what you just did.

"You think I'm a loser?" you started. "That I'm useless and pathetic. You know why I'm like that?" you snarled, voice getting louder. "Because of you. All of you. Ever since I could remember, all any of you have ever done was tell me how I'm stupid, a loser or ugly. Why am I like that? Because you people make me into that!" you shouted now addressing the entire class. You glared back to Alfred. His baby blue eyes filled with shock. "What did I ever do to you?" you walked a little closer to him and snapped. "Well?! Tell me!" you cried.

Alfred stuttered in response.

"That's what I thought." you said calmly. "Fuck you Alfred Jones." and you went towards the door.

"Where are you going young lady?!" huffed your teacher.

You looked at her sadly with tears in her eyes. "According to you and everyone else, straight down to Hell."

And with your final remark, you slammed the door to the classroom shut and ran home.

Alfred POV

Everyone in the room was silent.

"Yo Al," said my friend Mathias from behind. "I think you went a little too far this time."

Some of my other friends nodded.

"It's _____ we're talking about, she'll be fine." I said trying to brush it off. In truth I knew I went too far. _____ had never lashed out at anyone before. Had my words really affected her?

The bell rang signalling that second period would soon start. So I grabbed my books and went to my next class.

-----Time Skip-----

______ wasn't there for any of her other classes. I would know, I'm in all of them.
But I'm sure she is fine. ______ is tough! She was always the one to stick up for others.

'Because of you.'

Her sweet voice rang in my head. Yeah that's right, I think her voice is sweet.

But never mind that. I'm sure she is fine.

---Time Skip 3 Weeks later-----

I'm worried about her.

She hasn't come to school for 3 weeks now. No one has been able to contact her.

I decided that I would go and see her after school. Hopefully I would be able to find her.

---Time Skip AGAIN------

"Alfred you bloody git! Slow down!" shouted my older brother Arthur as I raced through the parking lot to my red Volvo. "Where are you going?"

"I have to go and fix something I broke." I stated simply and sadly.

"So you're going to go see ______?"  he said to clarify.

I blinked. "How did you know?"

" 'I have to go fix something I broke.' " he said repeating me. "You didn't just break her Alfred, you destroyed her." I knew  ________ and Arthur were friendly towards each other, he was probably the only friend she had. "Do you understand how much your words affect her Alfred? How much pain you caused her over the years? But to embarrass her like that was uncalled for." His green eyes bored into me as he spoke. "You should be ashamed." he turned and left without another word.


Your POV

You laid there. Hoping and wishing for death to strike you. Sadly, the Grim Reaper must have been on holidays, for you are still breathing.

You dropped out of school. Why should you go back to the place that causes you pain right?

Sighing with sadness, you sluggishly made your way down the stairs to feed your cat, Itacat.
He let out his strange "Ve~"'s as you scooped some pasta into his dish. You didn't have any yourself in worry you would get fat.

The cuts on your wrists increased greatly. They roamed up your arms and across your stomach. Who would care though right? Your parents had abandoned you when you were five and you had no family contact. Maybe your cat would care, but you doubted that as well.

You slowly made your way into your bathroom and went towards the sink. Your pale, bony fingers wrapped around the medicine cabinet drawer. You felt around until you found your diet pills. Opening the container, you shoved two of the pink capsules in your mouth and downed them with some water. You swallowed harshly and sighed, looking back down at your pills then looking at yourself in the mirror.
In the mirror, you saw yourself they way no girl wants to see themselves. In fear of what you saw was true, you reopened the bottle of medicine and shoved two more pills in your mouth.

In reality, you had lost so much weight from not eating and the pills you were majority bone. Your pale (s/c) skin stretched over your bones. You were a walking skeleton.

The words the bullies said to you swarmed in your head.





They tore through you. You felt large tears roll down your icy cheeks as you grabbed the scissors from the same drawer. You began running the sharp edge along your soft skin. You hissed in pain and whipped the object across the room. You curled into a ball and pressed your face into your knees.

There was a frantic knocking at the door.

"_______! ______! Open up!" called a horribly familiar voice.


I sobbed softly as he continued to hit my door.

"_____! Please open the door! Don't make me have to kick this thing down!"

He wouldn't.

You heard the door crack slightly until it nearly blew off the hinges.

You curled even tighter. "P-please, just leave." your said hoarsely. You slowly stood and made your way to the door where Alfred stood. Weak and covered in fresh and dried blood, he still thought you looked beautiful.

He stared at you. He saw the new and old cuts that littered your body. How thin had you gotten since that day. Your cheeks looked sunken in. A hollow body, for a hollow heart.

 "_-____?!" he said coming closer to you. His hand rose toward you and you flinched back. "Did...did I do this to you?" tears glistened in his baby blue eyes.

You looked at him smugly. "And why would you care? It's not like you thought about it when you were hurting me." You walked toward him and shoved you wrist in his face. He could only stare at the jagged scars and dried blood. "You did this to me. Look at what you caused!" his eye averted you."LOOK AT ME!" you screamed. He winced and looked, his eyes widening .
"_______....." he started, but you cut him off.

"Are you satisfied? Is this what you wanted to see? Do you understand how much it hurt to even come to school? Do you even know how it feels to be afraid to enter your classroom without being terrorized by others? Well, DO YOU?!" he rushed into you with such force it nearly knocked you over. He wrapped his arms around you and pressed his face in your hair. You could feel sobs racking through his body. He leaned your head up and slammed his mouth onto yours in a bruising kiss. Your body was too stunned to react. He pulled away and looked into his teary eyes.

"I'm so sorry." You stared at him in shock. His arms tightened around your shaking frame. "I never meant to hurt you so bad. I never did honest. The hero isn't supposed to hurt others. Please, will you forgive me? I love you."

The sincerity in his voice was heart breaking. Did he really mean it? Did he love you? You stared at him. Large (e/c) eyes doused in a layer of tears.

"I forgive you."

His face brightened up at your saying.

"But," you stated removing yourself from him. "I can never forget what you did to me Alfred. And I never will." You looked at him sternly. "If you really do love me like you say you do, you need to prove it."

Alfred blinked quickly in shock, then smirked.

"Challenge excepted."
er ma gerd! I don't know where this came from but y'know! so i finally got internet back after 8 damn days! I hate moving!!!
BIG AND DEPRESSING NEWS GUYS! my favourite band of all time (My Chemical Romance) iare going to stop making music!!!! :iconendoftheworldplz: my fellow kill joys feel me!! I might make a sequel...WE SHALL SEE!

i own nothing but the plot line!
:iconalfredfjonesplz: owns you!
I dont encourage self harming in anyway!!
if anyone is actually hurting you like this get help and remember! you have this random ginger 14 yearold canadian who thinks you are beautiful and fabulous!!!

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zebraqueen098 Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Artist
Da Cat Doe X3
Andithegreat Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2015  New member
I'm actually crying 😭😫
cupcakedragons Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Omg this made me cry ;-; I don't cry often......
Deceivertale Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You hurt meh kokoro! ;w;
iNSaNiTYisAmazing Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist

mcr obsessions ._.
iNSaNiTYisAmazing Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Bunnygoblin Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015
As soon as he smirked i new stuff was gonna go down.
oniirinsama23 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015
I've been in depression ever since I was in elementary
rocker3112 Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
why do i read sad stuff like this. i mean it is very well done. i think i need a a canadian hug. 
ylime-cxii Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I am Canadian hug  
rocker3112 Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Me to. I feel a lot better.
ylime-cxii Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
woo hoo Canada 
rocker3112 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
but i dont live in canada anymore
NeonBrightDevil9 Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2015  Student Filmographer
Alfred:Please forgive me..
I srsly love america but this story he is just...
An asshat :L.
AkitomiMcfarland Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015
Omg!!!! the feels!!!! Q.Q
ramendangosenbei Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2015
America: I never meant to hurt you so bad. I never did honest. The hero isn't supposed to hurt others. Please, will you forgive me? I love you."
Me: -smiles creepily- SHINRA TENSEI!!! 
awesum224eva Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Well done
Best comment ever 10/10
Hetalia Prussia (Laugh) Clap Epic clap Joker Clap 
slendenyan Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I've never been really bullied in my life (and I hope not to experience that)
But idk the bad thing might be bullies don't know what they are doing
Or worse... they exactly know...
Cool story but hella sad ;3
aot-danielle Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2014  Student General Artist
'Tries to think of words to describe of how awesome (like Prussia awesome), and cute, and just how beautiful this story is.' But no words can describe how fucking beautiful thus story is. ♥
is it weird that I was watching onision. I was watching onision speaks emo cutter and I was like lets read some of it......... is that weird and I was reading some of the comments and the said if this happened to me. If this happened to me I well just watch some pewdiepie, Vanossgaming, onision and tell my mommy

I'll be like mommy somebodies bulling me

Mommy:...I'll be up there tomorrow

Me: :3 * skips back home with with Mr. Axe in both hands*
ylime-cxii Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
i loooovvvveeee onision!!!
GodblessUSA1234567 Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2014
Who doesn't...okay some people don't like him
ylime-cxii Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
lol i know. but i always will!
GodblessUSA1234567 Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2014
I know I well too. He has some evil jokes and I try not to laugh but I do and I will always pray after :3
ylime-cxii Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
i know! thats like me. Some of the videos i don't watch just because of the topic. But im pretty chill with his jokes
GodblessUSA1234567 Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2014
yeah dark evil his evil, mean, and funny not a lot of people can be that :3
Rivulets-of-Blood Featured By Owner Edited Dec 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
WHY'D YOU HAVE TO MAKE IT SO SAD?!?!?! I'm bawling my eyes out right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!crying :crying: rvmp 
chasitythewolf Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2014
Alfred- I love you-
Me-*punches him in the face* Thts for the bullying jackass!!
Arthur-^_^U I didn't see anything love.....
Comedywiz411 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2014   Writer
:iconchallengeacceptedplz: Challenge accepted.
s1mr4n Featured By Owner Edited Nov 10, 2014
A-at least I have Itacat with me..... *hugs Itacat in emo corner*

Why did I ask to prove how much he loves me?


ScarletandLunaRcool Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist

hannah12987 Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh shit.... If Alfred met my family, he's shit his pants. My brothers a football player, my dad is buff as hell, along with my uncles, and my mom knows how to wield a gun, while I wield a metal pipe, and a tennis racket. ^W^ Be prepared Alfred~
karmasluck Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2014  Student General Artist
PastaFearFactory Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014
If someone actually did this to me.........
Dad: I'll get my rifle, Alfred, I'll give you a 1 second headstart, and fire 2 warningshots....into your head!
And I'd be there like
...WTF? Ed Emote 
Hetalianprincess12 Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014
*gets Finland* Finland I choose you!
Finland used super kick it was super effective!
America fainted
You win!
hellokittyasdf Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014
I will get my brother grell and his chainsaw too
heartlessnobody14 Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh my god do not listen to not alone by red while reading this it will kill your feels!! You have been warned..
Itsinmybloodyouknow Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Mari: I'm gonna get big bro out for you.
Alfred: yeah right, who?
Edvard: (storms In) ASSHAT! (Pulls al up) who did you do this to my sister!?!?!? ANSWER ME DAMMIT!
(Slaps back and forth)
Melody-lyric Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
fuck you Alfred F. Jones
queencreeper13 Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2014  Student General Artist
I'd get my father. :nod:

i love this story! It's so powerful! 
Sanactras Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2014  Student
I'll just-

Kill him-
NatureTune Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2014  Student General Artist
I would say-> "I don`t believe you. Prove it, and then i`ll se if something changed"
KatanaOngaku Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm just gonna go cry now
Incredible Your writing is so powerful. *applauds*
LILLYROSE17 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Student Writer
Challenge excepted
LovelyKittenPie Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014   Digital Artist
When I cry, I hiccup. Now I am hiccuping like crazy. It hurts. Hiccuping (and burping a little :3) makes me
juju956 Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I tried it it is like a burpsnart it all sounds like shit right ?
YellowVixen Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
listening to a thousand years - god i'm crying now :') but i'm happy don't worry.
doctordetectivemoose Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014  Student General Artist
This is a very emotional fic... (Personally, I wouldn't have forgiven him..) but good job!
ylime-cxii Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you! I wouldnt have forgiven him either but to please the majority and give it some sense of hope i had the reader forgive him :)
Mari225 Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow even the teacher was against the reader. How Alfred goes up and makes his hate speech, she doesn't even stop him.
But right when reader-chan is finally standing up for herself she goes into teacher mode. That is just sad.
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